Part Two of this post brings me to a truly enormous learning curve.
It’s not all about me.
And that’s one of the major problems we all face in today’s culture. Bombarded with the deception if it feels good—do it, we are led to believe we deserve to be happy.
A group of hot-shot educators began teaching this philosophy over fifty years ago. And we’ve allowed at least two generations of young people to believe life is all about them. They are special. And our tax dollars have paid and will continue to pay that costly bill. Parents bought the lie that their kid’s self-worth is the most important value we can teach them. And the P.C. police have pushed so far that everyone on the team gets a trophy…everybody’s a winner.
But we’ve failed to teach our children the Truth of the Word of God…without which, in the end, nobody wins. And you can’t teach what you don’t know, believe and practice.
God created the family first. He didn’t create government, entertainment, or even the church first. Family was and is first. A nation is no stronger than its families. Which leads me, after the fact, to consider the importance God places on the family. Satan dealt us a two-fisted-knock-out punch with no-fault divorce, and we cheered. Now there is no difference between divorce rates inside or outside the church.
Am I qualified to speak on this issue? You bet I am. In the old days of all about me, I packed up two small children and hit the door of our house, running straight to the courthouse. I chose divorce. I wasn’t happy. I made a wrong mate choice. I couldn’t tolerate another minute. But forty plus years later, I’ve come to understand I’ll never know what God could have done in that marriage had I trusted and allowed God time to change both of us.
And the consequences of my choice bled a permanent stain into the lives of me, my ex-husband, our new spouses, our parents, our friends, my children, and goodness knows who else. Has God forgiven me? Oh my yes. God is full of mercy and grace and when we repent, He always forgives the sin. But those stinky consequences lurk alive and well in the lives of angry children and my new-found knowledge I didn’t trust God. I knew about Him, but I didn’t trust Him as Lord and Savior. Because, at that time, my life was all about me.
All the “buts” don’t matter. And we always have a list of them, don’t we? “But I made a wrong choice in the first place.” “But he or she doesn’t meet my needs.” “But I don’t love him or her anymore.” God is either sovereign over all things or He is sovereign over nothing. And when He said, I hate divorce, there was a reason. And, after the fact, the consequences have taught me—just like what He told Judah in Jeremiah 2:19:
“Your own wickedness will correct you, and your apostasies will reprove you. Know therefore and see that it is evil and bitter for you to forsake the Lord your God, and the dread of Me is not in you,” declares the Lord God of hosts.”
Guess what, when I walked out that door, I forsook God’s authority over my life. Leaning to my own understanding, I pushed the fear of disobeying Him behind me, and I toted all my dirty laundry into a second marriage and Dick drug his rotten baggage along too. Divorce solved nothing. We had to begin all over again–with our old problems and a stack of new ones too. We had to learn the lessons of faith and trust and Holy Spirit produced love God knew we must learn, else there would be a longer string of broken homes, broken lives, and broken people. Perhaps even people lost forever in the darkness and lies of it’s all about me.
Television, songs, movies, and of course, FaceBook scream words of unforgiveness, anger, and hatred, and we mimic what we hear, but God’s Word says, “If you don’t forgive others, I won’t forgive you.” (Translation by DiAne). In recent years I’m learning what that really means and sometimes the lessons are really hard.
Jesus Christ forgave me for every single evil, hateful thing I’ve ever done—past, present, and future on that night in January. My despicable thoughts, actions, and deeds were nailed as an indictment against Him when He hung on that cross, suffered, and died for me. How then can I refuse to forgive every person who has been ugly, evil, or mean to me? And that’s the next lesson after life is not all about me. Refusing to forgive each other is not an option in the heart and life of a believer.
I am still learning, but have made great strides, in the dysfunctional use of my tongue. I don’t have to voice an opinion about everything and sometimes I just need to be silent. And most times, silence is preferred. I came from a loud and boisterous family and old habits and personality disorders die hard. I must choose to put them to death. Crucify them with the help of my Lord Jesus. Sure cuts down on the marital feuds and helps trend peace in my family and with others.
My ramblings, I hope, will strike a needful cord of help to some of you along the way. And, if you’d like, I’d love to have the opportunity to share more of those hard life lessons. Ours wasn’t always a peace-filled, loving forty years. I was taken to church from the nursery on. I walked the aisle at twelve with a group of girlfriends. But when we came to faith and trust in Christ in January of 1989, all things changed. Forever. The Spirit of God moved in, threw out a raft-a-garbage, tore down self-constructed walls, installed light that radiates into the dark, secret corners, and began a life-long remodeling job in our hearts, our home, and our lives.
Dick and I made a pledge to plaster prayer—together—into our daily lives. A praying plaster that cements that strong “cord of three strands” talked about in Ecclesiastes 4:12—The Father, Dick, and me—together ‘til He comes or we go to be with Him. ‘Cause it’s real hard to be screaming hate and throwing a tantrum when the three of you are involved in a life-changing, life-long conversation together.
Hope your old-house make-over is well underway too! And I pray you younger couples, at whatever age and stage you find yourselves today, have the extreme joy and faith and trust to reach forty, fifty, maybe even sixty years together with your spouse and the Lord Jesus Christ.
Really enjoyed the read.
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Thanks, M.C. I appreciate your reading and commenting. ❤
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How profound! You have really touched me and my thoughts. I am in the battle of a lifetime with my marriage. It’s a big mess and will be ending up in divorce if a miracle doesn’t take place. Not what I want but my husband cheated and chooses to to drink himself to death. It’s been a long hard journey of hurt,disappointment and yes growth in my relationship with the for me. Please share more as the Lord leads. Thanks so much for sharing your experience and wisdom
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Kelly, God is greater than any mess you, me, or your husband can make. I know this from experience. Trust God and pray for your man and pick your mess up off the floor so he can see the mess he makes. I hope you have a church home, a place where you can be nurtured and held up in prayer. God knows your needs and He alone can meet them. Trust Him. Seek wise counsel. And close your mouth to troublesome girlfriends. Feel free to message me anytime. God loves you sweet lady. Don’t forget that fact. ❤
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A very good lesson that so many won’t want to hear, but God will certainly use it in the life of those who do! 🙂 Thank you, DiAne! Happy Anniversary and Blessings! ❤
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If God uses the message of our journey in one couple’s life it will have been worth it all. Thanks for your encouragement, Caryl.
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Marriage is definitly a journey of ups and downs, making choices, losing small battles in order to win the larger war, celebrating the good times, and crying large amounts of tears during exhausting arguments. And after 55+ years, we thank God for helping us persist in this special journey and know how truly blessed we’ve been through the years🙏🏼
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Fifty-five + years!!!!! And persistence and obedience are the keys aren’t they, my very best friend? Dick gave me a new wedding ring on this 40th year and it symbolized that cord of three strands…one curved white gold, two smaller diamond bands interwoven with the curved white gold one. Without God I know we wouldn’t have made it and I’m sure you feel the same! ❤
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Wow, DiAne, what a great truth to share. I hope and pray that your words will be a strong prevention. Bless you for your kindness to us and we’re holdin’ ya, you bet, strong before the Lord.
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Thank you Terry. Time is short, we’d sure best be speaking His truth.
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DiAne, what a remarkable story! Your “ramblings” are filled with truth, plenty to ponder, and are beautifully written! God continue to bless and keep you and make His face shine on you. You are certainly reflecting that shine. (Anita Klumpers, in case you don’t recognize my wordpress name)
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Anita, thank you so much for your kind words. Isn’t it amazing what God teaches us through the years that we aren’t even aware of at the time. But I think saddest of all is that we often fail to ponder what we’ve learned and then share with our children, grandchildren, and those we’re with each day. This past month, since husband’s home-going, God is teaching me things that sure weren’t on my need-to-know list…but I’m required to share them too…when I can make application, sense, and order them in my tiny brain.
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